Too Loud

I hate this

The silence

Its so loud,

It screams inside my head

Its very annoying,

It hurts me so much

I wanna cry

I wanna leave

I wanna run

It goes through my brain to control my head

And makes me break

Makes me wanna speak

Makes me wanna fall

Can I sleep?

Or live a dream

Just to be surrounded by another world

I wanna be vanished to another frame

I'm sicked of this picture it can't fit me in

Part Five;; Untitled

Don't worry I did not get the call from a Smoken-Hot-Drop-Dead-Gorgeous-Guy, that I can tell all that by just hearing his voice, it was just my cousin Dana and it went like this

''hello danoosh'' I said

''halla jood, shlonch? sh5barech?'' she said

''I'm very well, entaii shlonch? shemsawya?'' I said

''el7emdlelah b5aiir'' she said ''sh3ndch elyem3a elm'3arb?'' she continued

''ma 3ndi shay as I think, lesh?'' I said

''bro7 avenues, tyen? b3d elm'3arb nro7'' she asked

''ee oki, ana as2al mom oo bcher a36ech 5bar oki?'' I said

''ee oki,'' she said

''ee cya bcher enshalla bel yam3a btyen?'' I said

''ma adri, ymkn'' she said

''hope to c u enshalla yalla bye'' I said

''oki bye'' she said and hang up

I put my head down and went in deep sleep.

I woke up on my phone vibrating, it was Lulu,

''hey, entaii lel7en nayma?'' she said

''ee, hehe'' I said

''yalla basech noom gomay b3d shway bmorech'' she said

''oki, enshalla bs shwaya'' I said

''la2 mako al7en tgomen ma ra7 a9akrah lamn to9len ley el7mam'' lulu said

''enshalla, elsa3a chum elly entaii daga w al7en agom?'' I said

''elsa3a 2;30pm, elsa3a chm entaii nayma?'' she said

''1;00am I think'' I said

''ee me too, why are you so sleepy then, snap out of it come on'' she said and giggled

''oki babe, I got to the bathroom let me call you as soon as I finish oki?'' I said

''oki, we'll see, if you did not call in 10 minutes you gonna be dead =p'' she said laughing

''hehe, oki bye'' I said and giggled

I freshed up and saw mom when I got out of the bathroom,

''elsalam yuma, b6la3 m3a lulu b3d shway oki?'' I said

''kel yom entaw? sh3ndkom? entaii mu maretha?'' she said, here we start the investigation

''la2, I'm not sick anymore, el7emdlelah its just a one day thing, and yea we are gonna make the walking for a month or so, we wanna get in shape'' I said

''3ad 6a3 elly wanna get in shape elm9a3weyen, oki bs la e6awloon'' she said

''enshalla'' I said and giggled

I called Lulu and told her that I'm about to have lunch then get ready I just got out of the bathroom,

I went to the kitchen and had my lunch, then went back to my room, changed and got ready to go out with Lulu

I wore a black training suite with white shirt and got my hair on a ponytail, I got my iPod on shuffle and was hearing Jennifer Lopez - Glad, I went to my lablob and signed in,

Yousef was online so I talked to him for a while,

''hey, you here'' I said and smiled

''yes, shno tawech ga3da?'' he said

''ee, oo 7addi day5a, oo abi a7alem hehe, I love to dream'' I said

''la2, g3day shofay elwa8e3 a7la'' he said

''ee, enshalla'' I said

''ella chan bt7lmen fenni hatha shay thany'' he said

''looool'' I giggled

''teth7ken ha?'' he said

''ee =p'' I said

''adri fech ma t7ebeny'' he said

''ee b3d shnsawei'' I said

''=('' he said

''=P'' I added

''shfeek?'' I said, what a heartless

''ma fenni shay'' he said, w3laya 7tta luw fe shay ma shja3ty ygool =p

''enta t7ebny? =p'' I said kidding and to break the silence

''ee 7ub mn 6raf wa7d y3ni'' he said

''loool'' I giggled, thinking he was kidding too

''sht7eb fenni?'' I said, still was kidding

''kel shay'' he said

''methel?'' I said, de3lah and still think its just a joke

''entaii 7elwa, w y3jebny smarch, w 3yonch, oo hatha ka shakel'' he said ''ama sha59etch fa lel7en ma adri'' he said

**btw we are Joodie and Yousef are friends in facebook too, where each have posted their own pix and that how they know how each look like**

''y3ni you like me? jadd?'' I said, BINGO you finally saw it =P such a blondie

''mbda2eyan, ee'' he said ''w kashakel entaii 7elwa, wla entayfa '3eer chethe?'' he continued

''hehe, =p ee ana adri eny 7elwa bs elshakel mu kel shay'' I said and still not believing

''akeed, 3shan chethe gelt lech sha59etech lel7en ma adri 3nha'' he said

''eeh'' I said

''w sha59etech ra7 a3refha m3a elayam ma tbayen eb yom oo lailah'' he said

''ee 9a7'' I said, shocked much?

'';)'' he winked

''enta lesh taby tet3raf 3lay akther?'' I asked, wanna know where is this going

''oo lesh ma at3raf 3leech akther?'' he answered with a question

''la2, mu 3n bs ka 9ada8ah y3ni??'' I asked

''ee friendship'' he said

''=D ee 7elow =p'' I said

''lesh 7elow?'' he said

Lulu called,

''yallah get out, I'm outside'' She said and hang up

''I have to go, I'll talk to you later, lulu bara'' I told Yousef

''oki, take care, bye'' he said

''bye'' I said

I left to Lulu's car, got in and she was on the phone talking to her cousin which by the way her name was also Lulu she use to be with us in college, Lulu1 was telling Lulu2 how she left Na9er finally and how he was such an asshole even in the break up.

as soon as she ended her call I asked her about what happened,

''you broke up with him?'' I asked

''ee g6ee3a, w msawey roo7a shareef roma oo entaii el'3al6ana'' she said

''huw!, shlon? shgal?'' I said

''ygoli ana adri ena fe another guy oo I know him'' she said

''what a load of crap, you believed him?'' I asked

''I dunno, what if he really do know one of my guy friends who I use to know'' she said

''what? thats impossible, you said they were, and he said that just to make you feel guilty exactly what I see you are feeling right now, he just wanna show you it wasn't his fault, he wanna scare you maybe, but noway, beside you weren't so close to those guys they were just with you in classes and stuff, which means he is so clueless'' I said,

''yea, you're right, thats what yasmeen my friend told me too'' she said

''see he is full of bullshit, and so weak he got nothing to defend himself'' I said

we reached our walking area where we walk until the end of elmarkaz el3elmy then come back again to her car.

when we finished we got some ice-cream, then she got me home, where I ad a quick shower and got ready for Jam3at el7areem fe baiit 5aley.

we wore fancy clothes, had amazing gossip and ate delicious food.

I was missing Yousef to be honest and kinda was thinking way too much about him he is my new obsession, I thought about what am I gonna talk to him about next, and what things I'm gonna mention about me.

The clock finally hit 12;00am, I was happy, sleepy and can't wait to get home.

we got home, i changed and signed in 3la 6ool, surprise Yousef was online,

''welcome'' he said

''thnnxx you'' I said

''ma geltely lesh 7elow mwthoo3 el9ada8ah??'' he said

''y7lelek lel7en thaker? ana ra7 3n baley'' I said, I seriously forget about that

''ana gelt akeed btensen bs ana abbi a3ref rayech bel mwtho3'' he said

''well I was glad enk taby friendship cause at first I thought you wanted more than that'' I said

''like?'' he said

''3baley taby 7ub =p'' I said ''honesty is a curse'' I continued

''lol oo mno gal akrehech? ana a7bch al7en'' he said

''hehe'' I laughed

''oo luw ma a7bch ma g3dt akalmch'' he said

''lol ya 7yaati 3ad 9ej wayyed mjabelny =p'' I said

''3moman ana mhtam eny a3rfech akther'' he said '' w etha ythaygech goolai'' he said

''la la bel3ax, mako shay mthayegny'' I said ''bs n9edamt enk t7enbny'' I continued

''there is a difference between love and falling in love'' he said

and I felt a bit confused

''love or el7ub e7na nmarsa b7yaatna elyawmeya, entai t7eben 9ade8atech w ana a7b a9de8a2ey'' he said

''el3esh8 lamn ayee agoolch hala 7yaattii, halla 3omri ... etc, w kel wa7d ysame3 elthany kalam '3azal'' he continued

''twni adri ena fe farg'' I said interested

''etha gelt ana ma a7bch m3nata ana akrehch w fe3lyan ana ma akrehech =)'' he said

''el7emdlelah, wallah ana ma akrehek'' I said

''lol y3ni entaii t7ebny?'' he asked

''hehe =p'' I said still don't see the difference can't admit it yet

''enzain shloon btet3raf 3la sha59ety?'' I said

''ybayen mn elswalef, y3ni mthalan luw ts2elni wen re7t elyom oo agolech elgahwa w tes2leni bcher w elly 3egba nafs elso2al oo ana ajawbech nafs eljwab w agolch elgahwa shno t3rfeni 3n sha59ety mn hal jwab?'' he said

''enk t7eb elgahwa =p'' I said playing dumb, wrong move but I just thought to be funny for a bit

''ee ta8reban'' he said ''nafs elshay ana mn swalfey m3ach ra7 astantej sha59etech'' he continued

''enzain enta lel7en ma ekteshaft ashya2 mn sha59ety?'' I said

''mballah, t7eben pop music, w t7eben t6l3en wayyd m3a refejatch, w t7eben t6al3en mosalsalat ajnabeya, w tmoten 3la elrag9'' he said that and shocked for a bit but then I realized those are all shown in my Facebook account,

''mashallah shdarak?'' I said

''kel hatha stantajta mn swalfey m3ach hal yomen'' he said, is that possible? hmm

''mashallah'' I said again

''ee bs 3shan t3rfen eny mhtam fech'' he said

'';$$ g3d tgoli kalam ta7rejny'' I said

''walaw ma fe benn ela9de8a2 e7raj'' he said

suddenly,

''alloo''

''Jood, you there?''

Part Four;; Who Said We Are Stronger Than Nature? Uh, Weakness!

Hey everybody,,

I just want to apologize about this part cause its shorter than the others as Joodie seemed to be sick,

Wednesday dawn, I was sleeping deeply and dreaming about something interesting when suddenly I opened my eyes like I'm scared of something when I was not. It was 5;30am as I checked my phone to see why I woke up this early, a sneaky pain was crawling in my stomach it was hurtful, I got up and went to the bathroom and got everything I had in out, Tena heard me so she came with glass of water,

''Here Jood, drink water'' She said

''no, I don't wanna throw up'' I said, and I dunno why but she giggled when I felt it wasn't funny

I went back to bed tried to fall back to sleep and shaking of coldness in my warm body.

I woke up again @ 12;00 noon, felt so empty but so lay3a chabdey did not feel hungry at all,

I lay on the living room couch so weak, so feeling cold and sick, the headache and the stomach ache loved to stick around.

@ 2;00pm Yousef signed in, and as always I was online so I talked to him,

''ana maretha'' I said

''afa, 3sa ma shar?'' he said, concern

''elshar ma eyeek'' I said ''I woke up @ 5;00 elfayer rassi yftar w chabdey tagleb, re7t tekram el7mam oo I throw up, y3awer ='('' I continued I said being daloo3a =P (I did not even tell mom)

''Jesmi 7ar w kela bardana'' I added, ya 7yati ana =P

''salamat'' he said, I think he sensed the dala3 part =p

''ysalmek'' I said

'' fech nashllah w ka7a wla bs msa5na?" he asked

''la2, el7emdlelah mako nashllah' I said

''el7emdlelah'' he said ''hatha shaklah virus fe eljaw 7tta refeji fe nfs elshay'' he continued

''ee ma a7b elvirusat'' I said still being daloo3a

''ma re7taay el6abeeb?'' he said, did not seem like he was concern about the dala3 part or decided to ignore it

''la2'' I said

''lazzem t8awen mna3tech'' he said

''ee'' I said

"ro7ay el6abeeb oo la7gay 3omrech'' he said, did he care finally? I dunno

''b3d shway mali 5elg al7en'' I said ''t3bana'' I continued

''ma tshofen shar (F)'' he said, he finally got under the spell

''elshar ma eyeek;$$'' I said

''5athatai panadol?'' he said

''la2, a5eth?'' I said, dala3 again =P

''ee 3shan tanzel el7rara'' he said

''oki'' I said

''3fya'' he said

''(a)'' I said

We then talked about celebrities and diseases, seriously I did not care about the topic we talk about as long as we talking.

I talked to Lulu after Yousef excused himself to take a nap,

''hey, Lulu'' I said

''hey, Jood, shfech? 9otch t3ban'' Lulu said

''ee t3bana shway maretha'' I said

''weeii ma tshofen shar, taben awadech el6abeeb?'' she asked

''la 7bebty I just call to tell you I can't come with you elyom sorry'' I said

''no its oki shda3wa'' Lulu said

''oki c u inshalla soon'' I said

''enshalla tgomen bel salama'' Lulu said

''allah ysalmech bye'' I said

''bye'' Lulu said

I slept for an hour or so, then woke up on my mom voice, she was talking to 3zooz about going to elmostashfa so I got up to talk to her,

''mama, I'm not feeling well, ba6ney y3awerny'' I said

''smeella 3leech, taben awadech elmostashfa, al7en bwadi 3zooz'' she said

''la2 enshalla its not that serious, bs brta7 shway if I felt like I'm not getting any better nro7'' I said

''oki 7bebty e5thay panadol oo namay or just ensad7ay'' mom said

''enshalla mama,'' I said

I took a panadol and went to el9allah w enseda7t, I was watching T.V. and was online, until it was 10;00pm thats when Yousef re-appeared online,

''9a7 elnoom'' he said ''ha shlon 9ertay al7en?'' he asked, how sweet

''a7san bs shway thayeg 5elgy'' I said, I was seriously feeling blue for some reason

''thayeg 5elgch oo ana mwjood? =)'' he said

''wallah ma adri shfeni I feel like crying'' I said

''ymkn elmalal, shofay shay tash'3len ro7ch feh'' he said

''ee g3da a6ale3 tv'' I said

''zain tsawen, shno g3da e6al3en?'' he said

''MBC Max, elfilm tawa badey'' I said

''5ush, a5alech etab3ena 3yal'' he said

''la 3adi enta shno ga3d tsawi'' I said, thinking I was waiting for you to sign in now you are leaving to watch my stupid tv

I seriously did not want to stop talking with Yousef and watch some lame suppose to be funny movie instead

''ana g3d akalmech oo afarfer bel facebook'' he said

''bacher I'm going out, I'm not gonna stay home this is boring'' I said

''wen?'' he said

''I dunno, eat something out with sis or go out with Lulu anywhere but here'' I said

''zain tsawen'' he said ''lesh ma t6l3en el9b7?, 3ad a7la shay el6al3a el9eb7, elshware3 fathya oo ma fe helg'' he continued

''ee wayd a7la katha mara 6ela3t m3a refejty in her break el9eb7 bs mu kel mara fathya oo refejaty elbajey 5amden, w mabi a6la3 bro7i'' I said

''kel refejatch yshta'3lon?'' he said

''la2, fe yadreson oo fe ba6aleya nafs 7alty'' I said

''aha, allah ywafegkom'' he said

''ajma3en'' I said '' te3ashet?'' I continued

''el7emdlelah, oo entaii??'' he said

''ana elyom mu meshtahya shay , mn el9eb7 ma kalet shay abbii ayo3 mu gadra, lol awal mara ashof w7da maretha tby tyo3 hathi ana'' I said I giggled

''lol ee mn elmarath allah ygawmech bel salama'' he said

We kept talking until 1;00am, when then he excused himself to go to bed, oh I wonder where this heading with Yousef

I then went to the kitchen made me a sandwich cause I can't wait to get hungry I need food,

I ate and went to bed afterward,

then I got a call ...

Broken, You Should Know

I use to think I hate all things kept you away from me

Now I don't think I appreciate your loneliness to delete me

I guess I just wanted us to happen baby

When we were never meant to be

And now I know we don't set our destiny

As that did not work out setting our history

Reading me was so clear to you maybe

But it wasn't me who wrote me so obviously

Now I'm broken inside terribly

You should know thats not temporary

Nothing last forever, even you and I

And if you swore you're mine

Then I'll know baby thats just a lie

Memories we had changes and things we feel die

We wasted our dreams, we kissed them goodbye

Now I'm standing out in the rain and I swear I feel dry

Part Three;; Interested in Knowing Less

Tuesday Morning passed me as I was still in bed sleeping. Today I did not wake up until it was noon, everybody failed to wake me up, I wondered was I that tired. I checked my phone and I had 1 Misscall from Lulu, a mess of BBms a lot of Broadcasts, and people calling my name, I felt like an important person. I got of bed and went to the bathroom, finished then got to the kitchen my casual routine, had my lunch then I talked to my bestie Eva,

''9ba7 el5aiir Evo Galeb'' I said

''9ba7 elnoor 7bebtii'' She said

''sorry 7bebty elfayer kent nayma ams nemt mbcher 3shan chethe ma radet 3leech'' I was explaining my delay

''its oki 7yaattii bs kent mthayga oo kan wedi akalmch'' she said

I got concern and hated the fact I was n't there for Eva I love her shes the best

''what? sh9ayer 7bebty? shfech? mno mza3lech?'' I said

''Mako bs yadii bel mostashfa, oo wayyed t3ban g3da a7aty'' she said

''ya 3omri wallah, ygoom bel salama enshalla'' I said sad

she asked me then ''what are you goin to do today?''

''same thing I did yesterday'' I said then thought of making her laugh to get her mind off worrying

''tryin to take over the world (6)'' I continued

she cracked laughing ''I wanna do that with you Jood lool'' she said

''yes pinky and the brain, lets do it hehe'' I said and could not help but laugh

she captured out convo and posted it in facebook and her dp it was so cool and funny

then I remembered Lulu who called me when I was sleeping so I gave her a call she picked up after 2 rings

''hey, Jood'' she said

''ahlain lulu, shlonch 7bebti??'' I said

''I'm fine, guess who asked about you?'' she said and giggled

''who did?'' I asked trying to figure out who would and smiling

''ali, hehe, I was surprised, he likes you and he want to see you again'' she said

I laughed out of shock as we did not even have a conversation

''is he serious?, why? when?'' I said not liking it

''I dunno he said you can come with Jood, and I come with my friend Inrahim and go somewhere for lunch or dinner'' she said

''haha and you gonna be with ugly fat Ibrahim, while I set with the white guy'' I said

''chub, noway I'm not going'' she said

''I'm sure not, what a self confident he got there'' I said

''Yea I'll inform him'' she said

''are we 6al3en elyom?'' I said

''yup, get ready, I'll be on my way, Cya'' She said

''Oki, Cya'' I said

I went back to my room and got out a red training pants from oysho I love it, with an Ed Hardy shirt, I let my hair down, and I got out and went to el9allah, talking with rawan in bbm, she was telling me about a guy she knows since ever and he confessed he is in love with her, was happy but feeling guilty, cause she has a BF, who was neglecting her so much, I was giving her tips about how she should not act blue as I don't think I would feel guilty if someone confessed he/she loves me, suddenly Lulu called,

''hey, I'm outside, yalla t3alay'' she said

''kaney yaya bye'' I said

I got out and got in her car, and she drove off to elmarkaz el3elmy, the weather there was so amazing, it was breezy.

Lulu was having a hard time with her BF, and was thinking about leaving him and she was talking about it as we were walking,

''I think I'm gonna leave na9er'' she said

''really? why?'' I said as I thought they were in love

''well, he is careless, he don't ask about me, ma yadri 3ny w ma ybayen ley what does he feel for me instead he yells a lot'' she said

''oh, that shameful and bad for him, I thought you guys clicked together'' I said

''I thought too honestly, but he is getting further away from me'' She said

I felt sad ''he said he wanna marry you right, and that he planned everything'' I said

''yup, but how could I marry someone I'm not sure how he really feel for me, and I'm not sure if he really want to marry me or that another lie, plus he makes big deals of small stuff which is not worth to fight about'' she said

''thats stupid, plus to be honest, I felt he is nothing but a big fat lier, the tattoo thingy, I still have a hard time believing that'' I said

''yea thats too next to lots of things, I'm breaking up with him and thats final'' she said

''good anything to make you happy baby'' I said

we had fun walking and lulu was imitating her soon to be ex-bf, she can make him sound so funny and makes me laugh my heart out.

we were done walking and went back to her car,

''Uhh,, I'm so busy tonight, a lot to do, wanna come?'' she said

''ee akeed ma wray shay, 5al n5ale9 she'3lech'' I said

we drove away to el-surra, got a tray of wrag 3enab from a restaurant there, then went to elrotha got a cake from el5baz, we then went back to her home and handed the stuff to their maids, then drove off to get dinner,

''so where do you want to eat? I'm hungry'' she said

''uhh,, I'm craving falafel you up for it??'' I asked

''yea, why not, where is good falafel place?'' she said

''lets head back to elrotha, there is a good one next to the Co-Op'' I said

we went back to elrotha and lulu parked her car,

''In a second thought I want a shwarma you want 1?'' I asked her

''yummy, yea I want a chicken shwarma plz'' she said

I got off the car and went to Rest. got our sandwichs and got back to the car then she drove back to my home, I got in and found 3zooz in the 9allah

''ilsalam'' I said

''w3laykom, t3alay 7a6en masre7yat 6are8 el3ali'' he said

I sat with him we watched elmasra7eya and laughed so hard. I did not watch it as I wanted to change its 9;30 I have to get comfy.

I went to shoug room,

''I got you something, you hungry?'' I said

''do I ever say no?'' she said

I laughed and gave her the falafel sandwich.

I went back to my room, changed to something comfy and went back to my lablob, I signed in and this time yousef was not online, I was sad for a minute as I was thrilled to get online and talk with him, my friend Noora who just got back from the US, was online and Hesham my friend in college, I talked to Noora,

''hey you=p, shloonch? missed u ;$'' I said

''ahlaaiin Jood, bwarech something'' Nono said

''hala fech show me'' I said

she displayed pix of me and her edited by her

''oh those are awesome thnxx 7bebty 7abet'hom;*'' I said

''walaw ma sawet shay;*'' Nono said

Hesham went offline and Yousef came online, I felt a rush,

''welcomez'' I said

''shokran'' he said

''shlonk? sh5barek?'' I said

''tmam, el7emdlelah, entai shlonch?'' he said

''ana zaina, t3al enta chm 3omrek?'' I said

''25'' he said

''mashalla el3omer kella'' I said ''lesh ma tezawajt lel7en'' I continued with the investigation

''lol ma yani eln9eeb'' he said

''enta tro7 lah, mu ohwa eyelek=p'' I said

''la 7bebti, ana an5e6eb ma a56eb'' he said

''lol shme3na y3ni?'' I said

''kel shay zain fenni, lesh ma an5e6eb'' he said '' ma taben ra8m omi?'' he continued

''lol aham shay ana a56ebek =p ana twni 3nona (a)'' I said

''benni w bench 3 years'' he said

''ee bs ana 3nona, w b3den enta elly ta56ebny ana old fashion amshey 3la el4adat w elta8aled'' I said

''old fashion w tesm3en Britney Spears ma ynfa3'' he said

''ee Britney Spears el8adema, allah yredha, mu elydeeda'' I said

''y3ni Britney kant t'3aney ayam 3aysha elmar6a?'' he said sarcastically

''la2, bs mn sennat 98 ehya t'3aney yom kan 3omri 10years old'' I said ''al7en 9art 3yoz='('' I continued

''9art 3yooz w 9art lesbian'' he said

''la2 she has a bf'' I said defending her sharaf obviously lool

''bs she kissed maddona once'' he said

''ee ... I'm feeling sleepy, tamer 3la shay gabel ma amshey?'' I said

''ma taben ra8m omii?'' he made fun of me again

''lool, good night'' I said

''good night and sweet dreams'' he said

I went back to my bed laughing at Yousef jokes, he is so funny, when before I thought he is very serious and ma95 w ma ya36ey wayh, turned out there is a lot to know about him, I now enjoy going online just to talk with him.

I had my phone on vibrating and slipped it under my pillow as I did not want the bbm gang annoy me while I'm asleep, they were talking though and I ignored all and fell in deep sleep.

Part Two;; Differentiating Love From Passion

I woke up this Monday morning by my phone ringing, I picked it up with one eye opened I was surprised that mom was calling me this early, so I called out maid Tena to bring home telephone and I re-called her,

"elsalam 3leekom" I said

''halla Jood, nayma? wla ga3da?'' mom said

''la twa g3dt'' I said

''weii asfa 7bebty g3dtch, bs b'3etch tes2len Tena sawat sala6a'' mom said

''la 3adi mama, wait i'll call her'' I said

I called out to tena and asked her,

''tena did you prepare salad for madam?'' I said

''yes, its ready'' tena said

''yuma ilsalad zahba'' i talked to mom on the phone again

''ok, mashkora yalla bye'' mom said

''el3afo, bye'' i said

I checked my phone to see what time is it and it was 1;30pm I wondered how come mom still not home yet, and the fact she called means she is not even close.

I got up fixed myself, washed my face and brushed my teeth then went and put on a PJ, went to the kitchen got something to eat, I took my food on a tray and went to the living room setting next to my lablob and I checked my facebook and stupid quiet msn.

I was listening to Britney Spears "Radar" on the iTunes, editing some of my pictures for fun and eating my breakfast.

30 minutes and 3zooz was in with shoug, each went to his/her room they changed and had their lunch, 30 minutes later mom walked in she salemat then called Tena to get her lunch and tea ready in her room.

3zooz came out to the 9allah and sat with me he was watching zwarat 5ammes, Shoug had her meal in her room, and probably as always got online, checking her facebook, emails and chatting in msn

@ 3;00om my friend Lulu called,

"hey, lulu'' I said

''halla Jood, shrayech nro7 namshey b3d shway bel markaz el3elmy" lulu said

''yea sure, got nothing to do I'm bored and could use a little training'' I said

''ok good we can go to avenues afterward too if you want'' she said

''yaay sure, when are we goin?'' I said

''now get ready 3shan nro7 elmarkaz el3elmy awal b3den age6ch ta5then shower w tbadlen w ared a5thch nro7 elavenues'' Lulu said

''yea oki cya'' i said

''cya bye'' she said

I signed out and switched my iTunes to pause and locked my lablob, got up to my room, opened my closet and got out a gray sweatpants with a white shirt and wore my socks and my shoes, I got my iPod and had it on shuffle I was listening to Lady GaGa "Bad Romance" and changing and kept it until Lulu called and I got out and took the iPod on pause and got in the car,

''Hello,'' I said

''hey, look were goin to the saloon first then we go to elmarkaz el3elmy oki?'' she said

''Oki, sure'' I said

We went to the saloon first cause she needed to get a facial, we did not stay there for long, we then left to elmarkaz el3elmy, we walked somewhere before elmarkaz el3elmy, when we started walking we were checking people out and making some comments, we saw a woman in her mid 20's or beginning of her 30's having a full make up in her face and wearing a sweatpants and a shirt and she was walking pass us, we saw people dating, skinny girls, and of course guys in the jetski, this was the funniest as one of the guys seemed very excited to drive through the bay back and fourth until he dropped it was hilarious I cracked laughing.

When the sun came down, we decided it was time to leave, we got some ice-cream and she dropped me home to have a shower and change, I entered home salamt 3la elmwjoden then went to moms room salamt 3leeha and took permission to go out with lulu to the avenues,

''mama I'm taking a shower b3den Lulu btmorni bnro7 avenues oki?" I said

''oki bs la t6awloon'' mom said

''enshalla mama'' I said

then excused myself to the bathroom.

I got out if the shower and went to my closet I got me a short baby pink dress with a a black ribbon in the waist it was three quarters sleeves, I got my hair in a ponytail with black hairband and black high-heals.

Lulu came and picked me up, and went straight to avenues, we had a good time shopping then we went to get pinkberry.

She met there an old friend Ali he was with his friend Ibrahim,

''oh, hey Ali, what a nice surprise'' Lulu said

''ahlain Lulu, shlonch?'' Ali said

''Tmam, This is my friend Joodie'' She said introducing me

''hii, nice to meet you'' I said

''nice to meet you too joodie, this is my friend Ibrahim'' Ali said

''Nice to meet you Ibrahim'' Me and lulu said

''tsharafna'' Ibrahim said

''ana 3azmetkom all 3la pinkberry for this nice coincident'' Lulu said

''la ma y9eer 3eeb, ana 3azmkom all, oo I insist'' Ali said

we laughed and accepted the invitation, we did not stay with them cause it was starting to get late and I have to go home, we walked back to the car talking about ali and how cute he was but such a white guy.

She dropped me home and then she left to her home.

I got to my room changed my clothes to something more comfy and went to my lablob I signed in and found Yousef was online, he started a conversation,

''Msa2 el5aiiir'' Yousef said

''Msa2 elnoor'' I said

''shlonch cute?'' he asked making fun of my email "miss-cute**@hotmail.com"

''hehe, tmam enta shlonk??'' I blushed

''tmam wallah'' he said

''doom enshalla'' I said

''ajma3en, entaii men wen mt5arja?'' he asked

''ACK'' I answered

''ee 7elow, shno t5a9o9ch?'' he asked

''Marketing, taswe8'' I said

''8damtay your C.V. ay mukan?'' he said

''ee 8damt, bs 8damt 3la eldewan b3d oo omi tgoli 5alech na6ra eldewan a7san'' I said

''ma9erech ebtawathefen,'' he said

''enshalla allah ysma3 menk enshalla soon zhagt men elbaiit'' I said

''ee my5alef bs ms2alat wagt w eldewan y6awlon el5a9 bser3a'' he said

''ee tell me about it'' I said

Then he asked about my day and I explained what I went through of fun today and laughed together about it and I mentioned the guy on the jetski I could not forget about that guy.

@ 1;00pm he excused himself to go to bed as he has work in the morning and I went to bed as well, I was thinking about Yousef and how he came in my life suddenly and how he is such a nice guy and I enjoy talking with him a lot in msn our friendship developed very quickly, I had a long day so I slept exhausted of fun.

Part One;; "Revealed Truth, Exposed Faces, Burned Masks"

As the new semester started, new dreams were set to be followed as planed except for mine, when everyone went back to school, I stayed at home. My siblings started their study, Malak "20 years old" ACK (Australian College of Kuwait), 3zooz "19 years old" Ta6be8i, Shoug "18 years old" Koleyat el3eLom, Mom A.K.A Mama Muneera is a Science teacher. So that gang yg3edon mn 9uba7 allah 5aiir 3shan yla7gon 3la eldwam, Malak tla7eg 3la elgaz l2na dwamha 3a9er.

When I wake up early, The house is for me and I'm home alone, so I don't wake up early very often its not worth it unless I'm going out, and I have a bad habit of staying up late, I usually wake up at none 1pm.

I wash my face and brush my teeth, have breakfast or lunch if it was something delicious and sometimes both, and then I go to our 9allah where I placed my LabLob (Laptop) I just love that badleya its so cute, and I placed there cause its far from the mess of my room.

This day was one of those days when I did wake up early, I got up @ 7;45 to be precise, I called Rawan My friend cause she asked me to,

"9ba7 il5aiir 7ubii" she said as soon as she picked it up, and I was surprised of how fast she managed to answer and how the words came out easily while I managed to reply slowly and not clear words

I said "9ba7 il5aiir 7bebti" and I yawned "shall we get ready now?" I continued

she said "yeah, I'll call you when I'm on my way to you"

I said "oki, Cya"

Then I had some trouble getting up this early specially as I slept very late elfayer, I stayed on bed for a while then I decided to jump out of it cause I thought she might got up and soon she would be in her way while I did not get ready yet. I took 20 minutes in the bathroom brushing my teeth my face and doing some nature work, went back to my room opened my closet and got out what I decided in bed to wear then Rawan called again

she said " hey, You ready?"

I panicked for few seconds cause I thought she got here when I was so not ready,

I said "yes, 10 minutes, just lemme wear my shoes and come out"

she said " you actually got up"

I said "You didn't?"

she said "nope, I'm too lazy =P"

I said in relieved voice "oh, me too hehe, I just jumped from bed and thought you are outside already thats why I said I am ready"

we laughed then ended the call and went to actually getting ready.

We went out, got to the saloon as I wanted, and she drove a lot across the bay, and when it was time to go home we went to McDonalds to get something to eat before going back home.

I got home, changed, ate and then slept for few hours.

I woke up @ 5;00pm and my sisters were talking about going out with my cousin Rataj and My other cousin wife Ranya so I got up, got ready and we left @ 6;00pm and went to marina mall had a Pinkberry then went to the scientific center had a burger king dinner then went back home @ 10;00pm.

After changing my clothes and getting to my lablob, I usually just sign in and cause people either to bored of me to talk or just busy so no one talk, until this afternoon when I decided to surrender to sleep due to obvious deadly tiredness, I don't usually get an afternoon nap, anyways a guy I had in my msn contacts decided to give me a time of his day when I had my msn sat on away.

He said; " msa2 el5aiir"

and he did not receive any reply from me but when I got back online and saw the message I was kinda surprised and because I'm such a sweetheart I apologized for being away, I replied when it was 11;08 thats when I re-appeared online while he sent his message something at the afternoon,

I said; "msa2 ilnoor,, sorry kent nayma el3a9r =p"

Before I go further away with the story let me tell you about the anonymous guy and he we met, we've met in a kinda of weird way 1 - 2 years ago I was signed in my msn and I got an add request in my email and I don't know who's that I got furious cause that was not the first time it happen to me and I decided to accept and he was such a gentleman and had a respectful attitude so I told him I was amazed about that and that I would keep him cause of that plus he is older than me in few years but a lot wiser so that might help me.

But after that we did not talk much unless I have a comment on his topic of the day. His name is Yousef.

Back to our conversation, I continued when I saw him re-sign in

I said; "welcome back" and no reply

I said; "hiiz"

He said; " welcome"

I said; "thnxx" *the following message could not be delivered, and I had a connection problem for a while.

I said; "baxx"

he said; "3sa ma shar"

I said; "wireless ma adri shfe yaf9el w yshbek"

he said; "ymkn y'3ar meni"

I said; "lool"

he said; "al7en rekad?"

I said; "I think .. 7ddii day5a .. w fenni noom"

he said; "lesh mn metta ga3da?"

I said; " nemt 4 or 5am elfayer oo g3dt 8am oo 6la3t b3den radet nemt @ 1pm b3den g3dt 5pm oo 6la3t @ 6pm oo twni radet elbaiit t3bana"

he said; "mashaalla =p"

and we talked for a little while explaining to him what I have done of activities this day, and I enjoyed talking to him, he got to know me a little better, I was talking a lot when he was talking too little.