Part Two;; Differentiating Love From Passion

I woke up this Monday morning by my phone ringing, I picked it up with one eye opened I was surprised that mom was calling me this early, so I called out maid Tena to bring home telephone and I re-called her,

"elsalam 3leekom" I said

''halla Jood, nayma? wla ga3da?'' mom said

''la twa g3dt'' I said

''weii asfa 7bebty g3dtch, bs b'3etch tes2len Tena sawat sala6a'' mom said

''la 3adi mama, wait i'll call her'' I said

I called out to tena and asked her,

''tena did you prepare salad for madam?'' I said

''yes, its ready'' tena said

''yuma ilsalad zahba'' i talked to mom on the phone again

''ok, mashkora yalla bye'' mom said

''el3afo, bye'' i said

I checked my phone to see what time is it and it was 1;30pm I wondered how come mom still not home yet, and the fact she called means she is not even close.

I got up fixed myself, washed my face and brushed my teeth then went and put on a PJ, went to the kitchen got something to eat, I took my food on a tray and went to the living room setting next to my lablob and I checked my facebook and stupid quiet msn.

I was listening to Britney Spears "Radar" on the iTunes, editing some of my pictures for fun and eating my breakfast.

30 minutes and 3zooz was in with shoug, each went to his/her room they changed and had their lunch, 30 minutes later mom walked in she salemat then called Tena to get her lunch and tea ready in her room.

3zooz came out to the 9allah and sat with me he was watching zwarat 5ammes, Shoug had her meal in her room, and probably as always got online, checking her facebook, emails and chatting in msn

@ 3;00om my friend Lulu called,

"hey, lulu'' I said

''halla Jood, shrayech nro7 namshey b3d shway bel markaz el3elmy" lulu said

''yea sure, got nothing to do I'm bored and could use a little training'' I said

''ok good we can go to avenues afterward too if you want'' she said

''yaay sure, when are we goin?'' I said

''now get ready 3shan nro7 elmarkaz el3elmy awal b3den age6ch ta5then shower w tbadlen w ared a5thch nro7 elavenues'' Lulu said

''yea oki cya'' i said

''cya bye'' she said

I signed out and switched my iTunes to pause and locked my lablob, got up to my room, opened my closet and got out a gray sweatpants with a white shirt and wore my socks and my shoes, I got my iPod and had it on shuffle I was listening to Lady GaGa "Bad Romance" and changing and kept it until Lulu called and I got out and took the iPod on pause and got in the car,

''Hello,'' I said

''hey, look were goin to the saloon first then we go to elmarkaz el3elmy oki?'' she said

''Oki, sure'' I said

We went to the saloon first cause she needed to get a facial, we did not stay there for long, we then left to elmarkaz el3elmy, we walked somewhere before elmarkaz el3elmy, when we started walking we were checking people out and making some comments, we saw a woman in her mid 20's or beginning of her 30's having a full make up in her face and wearing a sweatpants and a shirt and she was walking pass us, we saw people dating, skinny girls, and of course guys in the jetski, this was the funniest as one of the guys seemed very excited to drive through the bay back and fourth until he dropped it was hilarious I cracked laughing.

When the sun came down, we decided it was time to leave, we got some ice-cream and she dropped me home to have a shower and change, I entered home salamt 3la elmwjoden then went to moms room salamt 3leeha and took permission to go out with lulu to the avenues,

''mama I'm taking a shower b3den Lulu btmorni bnro7 avenues oki?" I said

''oki bs la t6awloon'' mom said

''enshalla mama'' I said

then excused myself to the bathroom.

I got out if the shower and went to my closet I got me a short baby pink dress with a a black ribbon in the waist it was three quarters sleeves, I got my hair in a ponytail with black hairband and black high-heals.

Lulu came and picked me up, and went straight to avenues, we had a good time shopping then we went to get pinkberry.

She met there an old friend Ali he was with his friend Ibrahim,

''oh, hey Ali, what a nice surprise'' Lulu said

''ahlain Lulu, shlonch?'' Ali said

''Tmam, This is my friend Joodie'' She said introducing me

''hii, nice to meet you'' I said

''nice to meet you too joodie, this is my friend Ibrahim'' Ali said

''Nice to meet you Ibrahim'' Me and lulu said

''tsharafna'' Ibrahim said

''ana 3azmetkom all 3la pinkberry for this nice coincident'' Lulu said

''la ma y9eer 3eeb, ana 3azmkom all, oo I insist'' Ali said

we laughed and accepted the invitation, we did not stay with them cause it was starting to get late and I have to go home, we walked back to the car talking about ali and how cute he was but such a white guy.

She dropped me home and then she left to her home.

I got to my room changed my clothes to something more comfy and went to my lablob I signed in and found Yousef was online, he started a conversation,

''Msa2 el5aiiir'' Yousef said

''Msa2 elnoor'' I said

''shlonch cute?'' he asked making fun of my email "miss-cute**@hotmail.com"

''hehe, tmam enta shlonk??'' I blushed

''tmam wallah'' he said

''doom enshalla'' I said

''ajma3en, entaii men wen mt5arja?'' he asked

''ACK'' I answered

''ee 7elow, shno t5a9o9ch?'' he asked

''Marketing, taswe8'' I said

''8damtay your C.V. ay mukan?'' he said

''ee 8damt, bs 8damt 3la eldewan b3d oo omi tgoli 5alech na6ra eldewan a7san'' I said

''ma9erech ebtawathefen,'' he said

''enshalla allah ysma3 menk enshalla soon zhagt men elbaiit'' I said

''ee my5alef bs ms2alat wagt w eldewan y6awlon el5a9 bser3a'' he said

''ee tell me about it'' I said

Then he asked about my day and I explained what I went through of fun today and laughed together about it and I mentioned the guy on the jetski I could not forget about that guy.

@ 1;00pm he excused himself to go to bed as he has work in the morning and I went to bed as well, I was thinking about Yousef and how he came in my life suddenly and how he is such a nice guy and I enjoy talking with him a lot in msn our friendship developed very quickly, I had a long day so I slept exhausted of fun.

Part One;; "Revealed Truth, Exposed Faces, Burned Masks"

As the new semester started, new dreams were set to be followed as planed except for mine, when everyone went back to school, I stayed at home. My siblings started their study, Malak "20 years old" ACK (Australian College of Kuwait), 3zooz "19 years old" Ta6be8i, Shoug "18 years old" Koleyat el3eLom, Mom A.K.A Mama Muneera is a Science teacher. So that gang yg3edon mn 9uba7 allah 5aiir 3shan yla7gon 3la eldwam, Malak tla7eg 3la elgaz l2na dwamha 3a9er.

When I wake up early, The house is for me and I'm home alone, so I don't wake up early very often its not worth it unless I'm going out, and I have a bad habit of staying up late, I usually wake up at none 1pm.

I wash my face and brush my teeth, have breakfast or lunch if it was something delicious and sometimes both, and then I go to our 9allah where I placed my LabLob (Laptop) I just love that badleya its so cute, and I placed there cause its far from the mess of my room.

This day was one of those days when I did wake up early, I got up @ 7;45 to be precise, I called Rawan My friend cause she asked me to,

"9ba7 il5aiir 7ubii" she said as soon as she picked it up, and I was surprised of how fast she managed to answer and how the words came out easily while I managed to reply slowly and not clear words

I said "9ba7 il5aiir 7bebti" and I yawned "shall we get ready now?" I continued

she said "yeah, I'll call you when I'm on my way to you"

I said "oki, Cya"

Then I had some trouble getting up this early specially as I slept very late elfayer, I stayed on bed for a while then I decided to jump out of it cause I thought she might got up and soon she would be in her way while I did not get ready yet. I took 20 minutes in the bathroom brushing my teeth my face and doing some nature work, went back to my room opened my closet and got out what I decided in bed to wear then Rawan called again

she said " hey, You ready?"

I panicked for few seconds cause I thought she got here when I was so not ready,

I said "yes, 10 minutes, just lemme wear my shoes and come out"

she said " you actually got up"

I said "You didn't?"

she said "nope, I'm too lazy =P"

I said in relieved voice "oh, me too hehe, I just jumped from bed and thought you are outside already thats why I said I am ready"

we laughed then ended the call and went to actually getting ready.

We went out, got to the saloon as I wanted, and she drove a lot across the bay, and when it was time to go home we went to McDonalds to get something to eat before going back home.

I got home, changed, ate and then slept for few hours.

I woke up @ 5;00pm and my sisters were talking about going out with my cousin Rataj and My other cousin wife Ranya so I got up, got ready and we left @ 6;00pm and went to marina mall had a Pinkberry then went to the scientific center had a burger king dinner then went back home @ 10;00pm.

After changing my clothes and getting to my lablob, I usually just sign in and cause people either to bored of me to talk or just busy so no one talk, until this afternoon when I decided to surrender to sleep due to obvious deadly tiredness, I don't usually get an afternoon nap, anyways a guy I had in my msn contacts decided to give me a time of his day when I had my msn sat on away.

He said; " msa2 el5aiir"

and he did not receive any reply from me but when I got back online and saw the message I was kinda surprised and because I'm such a sweetheart I apologized for being away, I replied when it was 11;08 thats when I re-appeared online while he sent his message something at the afternoon,

I said; "msa2 ilnoor,, sorry kent nayma el3a9r =p"

Before I go further away with the story let me tell you about the anonymous guy and he we met, we've met in a kinda of weird way 1 - 2 years ago I was signed in my msn and I got an add request in my email and I don't know who's that I got furious cause that was not the first time it happen to me and I decided to accept and he was such a gentleman and had a respectful attitude so I told him I was amazed about that and that I would keep him cause of that plus he is older than me in few years but a lot wiser so that might help me.

But after that we did not talk much unless I have a comment on his topic of the day. His name is Yousef.

Back to our conversation, I continued when I saw him re-sign in

I said; "welcome back" and no reply

I said; "hiiz"

He said; " welcome"

I said; "thnxx" *the following message could not be delivered, and I had a connection problem for a while.

I said; "baxx"

he said; "3sa ma shar"

I said; "wireless ma adri shfe yaf9el w yshbek"

he said; "ymkn y'3ar meni"

I said; "lool"

he said; "al7en rekad?"

I said; "I think .. 7ddii day5a .. w fenni noom"

he said; "lesh mn metta ga3da?"

I said; " nemt 4 or 5am elfayer oo g3dt 8am oo 6la3t b3den radet nemt @ 1pm b3den g3dt 5pm oo 6la3t @ 6pm oo twni radet elbaiit t3bana"

he said; "mashaalla =p"

and we talked for a little while explaining to him what I have done of activities this day, and I enjoyed talking to him, he got to know me a little better, I was talking a lot when he was talking too little.

Ice Age

Suddenly being shocked is not so shocking anymore, the element of the surprise died and the impossible is the regular now. Time is freezing down as everything seems to be slowing down and moving in slow motion, and having lots of stops and pauses.

To Think outside the box now is not so unique, also being different is a similarity. The news are oldies, the updates are past tense and moving forward is more like going back. Exposing is a boring old fashion bed time story, as stories are already told and well known by everybody.

The best is the worse and vise versa. How did we get to here? Things were too fast we did not see the stop sign and did not know that this journey would ever know a stop, however there is a solution for this and soon there will be a meltdown as there is for everything, and because we went beyond the impossible there is nothing we know called hard or difficult so we can go through this and fix it as we meant to be here to build, destroy and restructure everything not perfectly but better base and more new features, not flawless but its a progress.

We should go back to the time when things were just normal, fast and exciting, and restore the thrill of surviving daily actions wither its against the typical or the law. We can use those to shock us back to life and make this ship of lost hopes and dreams sail again wondering when will it sink or when will we get to the shore and getting to a new destination with new destiny.

Limits, Time To Set Some,

Limits are boundaries, mostly sat to keep people from interfering our spaces or lives. Privacy is something we don't give up no matter what, it get identified by the limits we set. We like to have a little space to ourselves without the noise of anyone else, from time to time we use it when we need it, to have that space there is should be walls sat way before, which are built by rules those should don't get destroyed by outsiders. These walls makes people create respect for you or just simply avoid you if you had lots of them cause very few that would like to climb those walls, so your limits have to be sat carefully without hurting anyones feelings. Limits as everything else changes and grow, those might break down or get even higher. Our boundaries are not the same toward people we know, it depends on the closeness between people we adore or not, and there is those few whom already broke all the boundaries and get a lot closer than ourselves. For me, my limits were very basic, and was please to have lots of close friends, who I know would be there for me and I'd be there for them. Mom always told me trust is not for everyone, and GaGa said "Trust is like a mirror, you can fix it if its broken, but you can still see the crack in that mother fuckers reflection." and thats true, its time to check out some members of my bffs list, and set the limits, I'm growing up.

I'm Not 17

I am done believing in stupid dreams, I am done being a drama queen, now I don't complain unless its really bothering me, yes I look so much younger than what I really am, but don't judge a book by its cover. I like to have fun, talk loud or low, I walk as a girl, a lady and a woman, I happen to talk like one too. I love shopping, driving and dancing. I've changed, all grown up, I know who I am, I may have not been acting like myself lately, but I'm me, pretty, outgoing, hot sexy, awesome personality and really nice kind person. I love life cause its full of possibilities, and I love my friends, I love to go crazy with them and enjoy everything we do. I take responsibilities of my actions and I try to fix things that I do wrong. I can't stop doing mistakes, but thats what we all do, don't we?, I mean I am a sinner, but I do it because I do it, I can't be judged for having fun my way, plus I can't be judged for things I can or cannot do, or if things I failed to fix, so what? whats the big deal? why to care pretty much about things thats unfix-able or what people really think. Yes sometimes I get out of line and I always get what I want, when I want it and thats how I live. But I apologize if I hurt anyone, I always try making people happier than what they really are. Once again I'm not 17 anymore, I'm more mature and if you can't see it I can't help you open your eyes.

School is Cool

Its a place with a large group of people whom were meant to be there to get well educated about lots of things written in books and examined by those books, but what we've noticed as former students that school has one more extra subject forced by the nature of the place to be studied as well, in fact we become very educated in that better than any other subject and thats is socializing. See school is complex or building we are meant to meet lots of people there and in the early years of school those are the best years to start socializing and making a number of people you have known by studying chance as your friends, and as more you group or less have years in between the better. I've been told that real friends come before college and that after entering college people who wanna become your friends are just doing that to take advantage of you, at first I did not care about that information much until I experienced it by myself. I have been socializing all my life since I was a kid, I had something that attracted people to talk to me. In junior high I had difficulty maintaining that thing, which as a result I did not have so much friends at that point.

In high school I made a nation of friends, which latterly was awesome cause they still remember me and still my friends.

In college I had the best couple and a half years ever, it was so much fun and really exciting I would do it again if I could. I had friends from lots of places and states. When college days were gone so is my friends who I got to know in college but I was left with one true friend, the rest found a way to easily forget me. I was seriously shocked that what people said was so true cause ironical that one true friend was a friend of a friend in high school.

One Sheet Of My Life Big Book

I’m romantic as the sun raise up when the moon fades down. I’m brutal I don’t deserve sympathy. I’m mean and mad more than you can wish to be. I don’t revenge my pain, I make people gain their fair share. I’m just sad of up coming past and I can’t go back. I’m not into screams but I love my tears to shout. I’m a mystery, more like a queen barred in a castle not ever seen. I control hearts beats when I come or leave like silly games, stupid? Am I? or do I fool you by words not clear. You may think you are more innocent than me, But people always miss judge me, And you are no different. You are an ordinary book I hated to read, still I wrote above each word of you a mistake of mine. You are blind and I let you lead me, you pushed me away and destroyed yourself. Continued living your stupid life without me because you thought you could be able to see. And I’m the one who feels curious to know more in your topic.