Wednesday, 27 July 2011


I decided a whole new plan for my extreme make over for my look, and my personality, not that my personality don't rock but some stuff has to be changed as I'm gonna be 23 this year.
1* I Always wanted to won 1 of those flat stomaches and fitted body with some muscles, not that I'm chubby but I've got some curves and love handles I would love to shape them. As soon as I acomplish that I'm gonna have to accessory it, so I will get a belly peircing maybe soon, also my tongue maybe with extra piercing for my ears. Plus I wanna have couple of tattoos.
2* My style, I have a sporty look as I adore the simplisty of it and the cuteness that comes out of it, so I'm jus gonna upgrade it a lil bit, and have other styles as I don't like to stick to 1 style all the time.
So in order to achieve these goals, I've been dieting and excersizing for a month now hopefuly I will get what I want in the end.
Wish me luck Ya'll. xoxo

Sunday, 17 July 2011

Someone Like You

Now I'm setting on the edge of our bed, feeling cold, scared, and tears are falling to top it all. He's on his side of the bed, smoking and watching the T.V., I hug myself and my arm hurts, I look and its bruised, red and purple, I've seen it before, yes I've been there before, and oh how much the pain feels the same. I close my eyes and I get slamed left and right, up and down by memories of a heartless bastered, a beast, someone rediclously weak to admit it all, I opened my eyes now and I cry more, surprisely I got his attention. He looks at me, I look right back at him, and I don't see a soul inside when I look at his eyes, those eyes are not the same, its reflecting evil somehow, and I feel like its the first time I know what he's thinking of, I feel like I understand now.
At this point I realize how powerless I am, At this time all I want is to get out and never return again, never come back, I'll never be the same again. He asked about my unstopping tears, I asked about his roughness, I gave my tears a confused reason, and he's reasons were more painful than the scare. There was no point of me staying, So he kicked me out and I refused to go out this weak, I Don't Wanna Leave now, I don't wanna be forced anymore. He just Don't want Me Anymore, why is it Too Hard For me To Understand, he kept yelling at me then the cold silence rushed in and stopped everything. Then I asked to leave and he walked me out, disgusted with me, like I'm the one who went wrong with it, I left.