Monday, 6 December 2010

Part Seventeen;; I Got A Feeling, This Could Be Serious!

''shfeech? tethayagtay meni?'' he said

''la2, not exactly, I seriously don't know what I'm feeling or doing right now, it was not wrong? right?'' I said as I was walking to set next to him on the sofa

''wrong? no, why would it be wrong?'' he asked

''I dunno, I feel weird, I don't feel like me, I mean it felt good, but lots of weirdness'' I said

and he kissed me again, I felt I need more seriously it was like a drug to me and I got addicted right from the start, is it too early for a rehab?

''oki, we should stop, 3la a8al ne7trem mom is here, plus why are we kissing? omg, I'm kissing my best friend, can I be more naive?'' I said


I woke up to my bbm my friend Rawoon is pinging me,

''yal 5ayssa, wench entaii enshalla we get a time of your day y3ni salmay bel '3ala6'' she said

oh so it was just a dream what a waste, I looked for 6alool and he was peacefully sleeping in a chair and I was laying on the sofa, I looked at mom and she was sleeping too, I checked to see what time is it, it was 4;00am

''hey you, I was apparently sleeping but I swear it seemed so very real and pretty and you totally ruined it ='( aaahh I hate you right now,but still miss you as hell wifey'' I said

''weii entaw ay 7azza 3ndkom?'' she asked

''its 4;00am, and I can't remember when did I fall asleep'' I said

''oh oki, so you awake wla btreden tnamen? I prefer you stay sober, I have some news'' she said

''do I really have a choice? tell me =D'' I said

''my elder is getting engaged to her long time bf and in a month or so shes gonna tamlech'' she said

''wow! thats fantastic baby I'm so happy for her I feel like dancing \=D/'' I said

''but its bitter sweet you know, I feel like crying'' she said

''oh, 7bebty its oki you should be happy you gonna have new kids to mess their lives a bit instead of yours, as for a change I mean'' I said

''loooooool, thnxx I guess, so whats happening with you in the US'' she said

I totally ignored that and went back to sleeping, I love dreaming they make me do crazy stuff,

@ 6;30 Sunday morning I heard a noise so I got up, and saw 6alool getting ready to leave,

''you leaving now? where?'' I said

''college, b3d wen, I have to go to my place then college I'm totally gonna be late'' he said

''oki la t3a9eb 3lay, you gonna come back here?'' I said

''dunno, not sure, but remember you have to come to my place get my homeworks done and reports, plus help me study for my tests, I have an exam in couple of hours and I am relaying on my imagination to fix that'' he said

''hehe, good luck call me once you finish'' I said

''sure, yalla tamren 3la shay?'' he said

''la salmtek w mwafag enshalla'' I said ''one more question though'' I continued

''amray'' he said

''did we umm, ..'' I'm mumbling

''could you hurry, did we wat?'' he said

''did we watch T.V. and kiss in the middle of the night?'' I said doing it straight as usual

''sweety, your blood sugar is too high, try to catch some sleep, now lemme go, I'll talk to you later'' he said

''so it was a dream?'' I said

''must've been unless, you want some of my sugar, which I can't give you right now I have to go babe, c ya later'' he said, after looking at his watch and left, I fell to my embarrassment hiding my face under the blanket

I signed in MSN yousef was online but away as usual, I slept again.
And I woke again as people keep irritating me, but these time there was nurses and a doctor checking mom,

''oh doctor, so what happened about moms brain surgery? is it happening anytime soon?'' I said

''yea we should before she get more damage in her brain, it would be done this after noon, you should sign some papers'' he said

''oki, I'm gonna run home to get me some stuff and change then get back here to stay with her'' I said

''sure, you do what you need to do, we'll be here'' the doctor said

I got up went to the bathroom washed my face and tried waking up, good thing I'm not driving or else there gonna be a big mess out there, I came out of the bathroom put on my cardigan kissed my mom forehead, left the hospital and stopped a cab, got in then went back home

I got in the bathroom and had an awesome shower, I dried up and with a rob on I put in my iPod and played the song Nothing in This World by Paris Hilton, I started applying some foundation and a mascara with blusher a little lips stick made me glow,
I then got a pullover from my closet with a tight jeans and snickers got ready to leave,

It was 11;30
Sunday Morning

I then left to the Hospital with the iPod in my ears I text uncle, my brother and 6alool I talked to him in bbm, I told them about the surgery, I was listening to Just A Dream by Nelly, I got to the hospital, and went to my moms room, she was awake

''mama, tara elyom sawon lech el3amaleya enshalla, ana 5ayfa'' I said

''7bebty t3alay 7tta ana 5ayfa, bs enshalla mako ella el5aiir, geltaii 7g 5alech w 5wanech?'' she said

''ee dazet lehom msg'' I said

''g3daii m3ay nsolef, metta belthab6 gal el3amaleya ra7 tkon'' she said

''he said afternoon, atwa8a3 3la el2 or 3'' I said

''y3ni bagey sa3ten ta8reban'' she said, while looking at the room clock, and holding me while I layed next to her in her bed, I put my head on her chest while she was playing with my hair, I felt like sleeping but the fact mom is going to a surgery could not let me sleep, and we kept talking for a while

shortly the nurse came to take mom away,

''its time to get you ready for surgery'' she said

''wait she is not gonna eat before?'' I asked

''no its not good, it can be dangerous too'' she said

in this time 6alool came in,

''hey, el7emdlelah we9alt gabel el3amalya'' he said

''ee ashwa, al7en bya5thonha 7g el3maleya'' I said and got up from mom bed

''halla 5alty, la t5afen, enshalla mako ella el3afya w tgomen bel salama'' he said

''enshalla, allah kareem, bs gool 7g Jood la t7atey'' she said

Moms was getting pushed to OR room 6alool and I helped the nurse to do so my tears just started rolling down and I felt 6alool looking at me, when we approached the OR the doctors and other nurses took the bed and shut the door to keep us out, I just turned and huggged 6alool really hard and started crying

''its oki, 9adgeny she'll be fine, ehya mu 5ayfa ktherech bs 5la9'' he said

''ma agder wallah 7addy 5ayfa, I'm shaking'' I said

''oki t3alay lets set on the chairs here'' he said, while I was still hugging him

''oki'' I said, and shed my tear while still holding him, and akeed elbajey were in his pullover, then we sat while I was still holding his hand with both of my hands really hard

''oki sba7teny dmoo3 w nawya takseren eddy, adri ena omich bel OR bs mu lazzim I go there too'' he said, and giggled

''sorry,'' I said and let go of him

''at'3ashmar yuba kefch kesreha, fedwa'' he said, and he gave me his hand back

''teslam, la2 ma ra7 akserha bs I need 6alool I can't do this alone its hard wallah'' I said and started crying again so he took my head and placed it in his chest, could I stop crying now? don't count on it

the surgery is most likely to take 6 - 10 hours maximum, the first hour went by, I slept laying my head on 6alool lab

Saturday, 4 December 2010

Part Sixteen;; So Complicated! Uh, I Don't Need This Now!

6alool hugged me really close to his chest and I kept hearing his heart beat,

''look I know you are very scared right now, cause your uncle is gone, your mom is very sick and you are on your on while you never been like this before, I'll be here with you no matter what you can count me I swear I'll be there, cause I know how it feels to be so alone in a foreign country, I'm gonna stay with you tonight'' he said

my tears were rolling down my face, then I moved away and tried to wipe some of my tears,

''thanks 6alool this really means a lot to me, and yea I'm very scared, and you've been a really comfort to me lately'' I said

''oki 5la9 stop crying please, 7adda ma agder ashof someone crying, so cut it la agare9 5doodch hehe'' he said while g3d ygare9 5doodi

''oki, can we ndesh da5el 3la a8al'' I said

''yalla 7ajeya, btw yayba m3ach jackets oo these stuff, umbrella too l2na b6eg mu6ar b3d shway oo its getting cold'' he said, while we were walking in the hospitals

''ee I got some pullovers, but no umbrella'' I said

''we gotta take you shopping soon'' he said

''a5eehh shopping thats heaven'' I said

''agool emshay emshay b3den te7alemay'' he said

''ee ekser fenni'' I said

''ee entaw elbnat ma tn3a6oon wayh, dala3 w mala8a'' he said

''y3ni entaw elly tn3a6on wayh?'' I said

''ee shofay sh7latny kash5a w thegel'' he said, and I giggled mocking him

we arrived to mom room she was asleep as usual so me and 6alool sat on the couch watching T.V.

''I want some skittles, I'm gonna get some from the snacks machine wants something?'' I said

''no, I'll come with you I might find a redbull or something'' he said

we went out of the room searching for the snack machine, we found 2 one is a drinks machine, the other 1 is snacks, I got out a skittles, and 6alool bought a soda,

''so how is this girl you love have you been talking with her lately?'' I asked

''uh, well we broke up'' he said

''what? why? I thought you guys were very special'' I said

''apparently I'm not being good to her, so she dumped me'' he said

''oh, I'm sorry,'' I said

''its, alright, allah ywafegha enshalla telga elly a7san meni, I've been away for a long while she should live her life instead of waiting'' he said

''yes, 9a7 thats a good point'' I said

we were walking back while he was drinking his soda, and I'm having my skittles, we got to the room, and mom just got awake, I went toward her and and helped her get up straight, and kissed her forehead

''taw ma nawerat el'3orfa'' I said

''ee wallah 5altey zain g3dtay, shlonch al7en enshalla a7san'' 6alool said

''halla yoma halla fekom zain ytaw g3daw m3ay, 9ejj eny kela t3bana w nayma bs ashofkom shwaya a6aman 3leekom'' she said

''7yaatti yoma e7na b5aiir etha entaii b5aiir, ma galech el6abeeb metta el3amaleya?'' I asked her

''la wallah, bs yaw sawoli fo7o9at nafs kel mara w 3a6oni elmedication w bs, entaii wench elyom?'' she said

''ana yeet b3d ma ga6et 5aley elma6ar wla entaii w nemt yamch shway b3den, dag 3lay 6alool 6al3ny re7na nt'3ada'' I said, not mentioning the other friends part, so I don't get killed or sent back to kuwait

''ee 3leekom bel 3afya, wen te'3adetaw?'' she said

''ma63am greeb mn elmostashfa'' I said, and was shocked mom was not mad, guess the US changed her too

''ee 7elow, zain '3ayrtaw jaw, enshalla ana etha 5la9t 3maleya w 9ert a7san yabelna 6al3a jma3eya'' she said

''enshalla akeed 5alaty awadech a7la ma63am ehny, w nwadech tshofen eldeera sh7lat'ha '3eer 3n elkuwait'' he said

''ee enshalla bs entaii gomay bel salma'' I said and kissed her again

''kalatay shay yuma? taben taklen?'' I continued

''la el7emdlelah kaleet gabel la anam mara thanya, bs bgom aro7 el7mam w ared anam'' she said

me and 6alool helped mom gets out of her bed and go to the bathroom, when she finished we got her back to her bed to rest, she slept 3la 6ool b3d 3omri she was very exhausted,

''you wanna sleep or watch tv?'' 6alool said

''la2 5alna watch tv and eat my skittles,'' I said

I took a blanket and he did too and we stayed watching Alex and Emma, a romantic comedy movie it was amazing I loved the movie to be honest,

''6alool how its like to kiss? is it as magical is in the movies?'' I asked

''you never been kissed?'' he asked

''hehe, yes I'm a perfect virgin'' I said and giggled and felt shy at once

''y7lelch wallah, well its so amazing I love it, to me its art, I love to do wonders with it'' he said

''wow! I wanna try it I dreamed of it a lot'' I said

''I can teach you if you want'' he said

''what? that would be totally weird'' I said, feeling so I wanna do it but I don't want to, it was so confusing

''la shda3wa 5o bs b3almech, so yes wla no, tara its a life time opportunity, wayyd ytmanoon ykonon mukanech'' he said and flashing a smile I can't say no to

''well, oki'' I said nervous

''oki close your eyes, and gimme your hands'' he held my hands and sensed that I was shaking, ''oki relax I'm not gonna rap you'' he continued

''oki, its just ..'' I could not continue

he kissed me and he kept on doing it for a while, and suddenly stopped, and I opened my eyes, I looked at his eyes,

''well, you gonna say something?'' he said while looking back at me

''uh, I have to go'' I said, mumbling

''go? go where?'' he said

''bathroom, excuse me'' I said, got up and got in the bathroom

I washed my face and looked at myself I fixed my look I was looking like a mess I laughed a little, seriously did not know what to feel, I opened the door

''6alool?'' I said while standing by the bathroom door

Wednesday, 1 December 2010

Part Fifteen;; Knock, Knock Its Freedom!

I was very shocked and obviously surprised, and holden 6alool arm immediately, because it happened as soon as 6alool switched the lights on a lot of people screamed at once surprise, felt my heart wanna get out of my chest and soon I'll fall in the floor.

6alool was laughing so hard and looking at me as I was trying to breathe

''oki, breathe breathe, shda3wa 3leech, hehehe, wallah you should have seen your face ma yt6awaf'' he said mocking me

''OMG!, OMG! You almost killed me Y'all'' I said, as soon as I could get a breathe

''SORRY!!'' everyone said together

people started approaching me, making sure I am O.k and 6alool was introducing them as they did too,

''hey, you oki babe?'' Amanda said

''you look pale honey after the shock'' Lizzy said

''oh baby I'll hug You'' Jane

''Oki, You Guys, cut the DraMa, and Jood Stop being such a drama queen it was just an awesome move of us all but you obviously don't deserve it yalla bara 7ajeya, no wait I'm kidding, hehe'' he said, while pushing me to the door and I'm looking at him with my innocent eyes

''hehe, stop it talal, look at her cute face, she still feel lost'' Jane said

''hehe, its Ok I know how he can be so mean, I should be used to that'' I said finally spoke something

''oki babe I am Lizzy, and it is so nice to see you finally as talal have talked so much about you and how close you guys are'' she said that and gave me a hug ''You can just call me liz'' she continued

''yea he keeps talking about you on and on and on like he can never stop, btw I am Amanda and you can just call me Ama'' Amanda said

''hehe, very funny, she knows that I am too cool for her so why would I talk about her'' 6alool said, and I gave him wtf? look

''yea, right!'' I said

''and I'm Jane welcome to your new family'' Jane said

''thnxx Y'all its so niice to meet y'all'' I said

''now you met, Ama, Liz, and Jane, come let me introduce you to the guys'' he said, pointing at the girls as he calling their names, and took my hand to get inside to the living room

There was 2 Kuwaiti guys and other 3 Americans,

''Fahood my friend mn elkuwait,'' 6alool said

''guwa shlonch?'' fahad said and shaked my hand

''ahlaaiin, tmam'' I said

''oo hatha 9aloo7, kuwait'' 6alool said

''ahlaain'' I said and shaked his hands

''halla wallah'' 9aloo7 said

''Jack, American goes to college with us he is 22 too'' 6alool said

''hey Jack'' I said

''how are you? heard lots about you'' he said and shaked my hand

''I'm good nice to meet you'' I said

''and here is Ben, 23 yet he still goes college with us'' 6alool said

''hii,'' Ben said

''and Last but not least our nerd Jason'' 6alool said

''hey, Jason how are you?'' I said

''I'm oki, how you doin?'' he said

''I'm Great, now there will be food in this gathering right?'' I said, out of hunger forgetting shyness

They all laughed at me and said yes,

''ee om eb6en bnwadech taklen'' 6alool said

''I am not you just made me starve hehe'' I said ''so where are we eatting?'' I continued

''well, there is a place across the street ra7 nro7 lah mashy, yalla now''

we all got up and got out from there, and while walking I was with the girls talking about stuff and getting to know each, they all are awesome girls very nice, and all got a Blackberry so I added them all, and I signed in msn but Yousef Wasn't there,

We got to the restaurant enjoyed lunch/dinner, it was every delicious and it was an awesome evening and while I was having a great time there I heard the MSN Beep,

''Msa2 elward'' Yousef said

''ahlaaiin msa2 elnoor w elnwaiir ;D"I was very thrilled to talk to him again cause I've missed him so much

''shlonch ya sooda?'' he said

''ana zaina, oo ana mu sooda ana samra'' I said

''ma 8e9adt sooda 5alla, sooda methel kelmat jamela ow 7elwa'' he said

''oh, ;$$ ma kent adri l2na ana samra fa awadem 3balhom ana fa9elah mn el5wal =p'' I said

''la kelsh entaii mu 5alla, malech 3ela8a, 3yal shga3da tsawen?'' he said

''wallah 6al3a at'3ada m3a 6alool oo girls he know oo his friends bara'' I said, 9ra7a problems

''oh, y3ni fe weyakom shbab?'' he said

''ee, rabe3 6alool bs ana mali she'3el fehom'' I said

''5ush'' he said

''lesh 3a9abt?" I said

''mmm, ma adri y3ni shay 7elow ench te6l3en m3a shbab ma t3rfenhom?'' he asked, and he had a point

''la2 bs I have my reasons, ma agder agool lehom la tyoon'' I said

''bs tgdren ma tro7en'' he said, and he seemed jealous

''wat? ag3ad bel baiit mthalan?'' I said

''la2 teg3den m3a omich mu entaii elmfroth msafra 3shan tg3den m3aha?'' he said

''ee bs enshalla ma an7ebs, 5al ashof eldenya w asasan omi rathya'' I said

''oki kefch 3yal, 5alech ra7 mn hal 9oob w entaii 6la3tay mn hal 9oob'' he said

''tara ma lah da3ey eltajre7 bel 7achey'' I said

''oki ana mashy tamren 3la shay?'' he said

''wat? now? where to?'' I said as I felt my heart stopped for a while and ached

''bro7 anam wallah t3ban, w 3ndy bcher dwam'' he said

''y3ni mu z3lan??'' I said

''achatheb 3leech etha gelt lech la2, bs yhemch?'' he said

''akeed yhemni lesh tkalmi chethe?'' I said

''9a7 m3ach 7g ma lah da3y a7achech chethe ana '3l6an, mno ana la obuch wla o5uch wla raylech'' he said

''oki tara wallah ma lah da3y tkaber elsalfa'' I said

''ma kbart 3addi saway elly tabena 7yatch :D'' he said

''oki noom el3awaafii'' I said, knowing he was upset, but he hurt me

''y3afech, te9b7en 3la 5aiir'' he said

''w enta mn ahla'' I said

''are you oki Jood? u seem upset or worried?'' Jane said

''no its oki, I'm just worried about mom'' I said

''babe, don't worry just pray for her we all will pray for her and GOD will hear us and soon she will be better'' Ama said

''thnxx, I will, and I hope she gets better'' I said, I looked really annoyed


I jumped as usual but this time not as much as I did earlier cause I'm getting use to 6alool moves again,

''God, you love seeing my boobs jumping a bit don't you'' I said and giggled

''kaaaaaaaaaaaak, 9ra7a ee they look awesome'' he said laughing

''shut up you pervert'' I said and I slapped his arm as he was next to me

''yalla emshay lazzim nro7 our place b3den nge6ech elhospital'' 6alool said, and grapped my hand

''we leaving?'' Liz said

''unfortunately baby the trip is over'' Fahood said

''I'm sorry guys to cut your fun short, but we'll hang out some more as soon as mom finish her surgery and be alright'' I said

''ee, 9a7 when her surgery right?'' 6alool said, and I stared at him for a while

''I dunno they did not find the suitable doctor yet they said they might get a doctor from another hospital who is a professional in these surgeries, I'm gonna check about that tonight and see what happened'' I said

''anyways why the blue faces, I'm sorry you guys but I've had a wonderful time, you all were awesome and I'm so happy that I got to know you'' I continued

They all laughed and said that they had fun with me too,

''does that mean we are getting ice-cream before home?'' Jack said

we all laughed at him and I said,

''Yes there is no harm in little fun'' I said

''ee 3baley b3d asasan hal 6al3a kelaha 3lshanch w ts7eben 3leena, 3shan as7ab lsanech w age9a'' 6alool said, I looked at him with innocent eyes and smiled

We got out and went to have ice-cream and kept talking all the way and having some fun, the guys were awesome, and the girls were funny and it was one of those days when I wish this never ends, but sadly it had to,

we arrived to 6alools place which he stays with his Kuwaiti friends and they all got there to take their stuff and then all leave, 6alool came with me to go to the hospital, we stopped a cab and he opened the door for me, I got in and he got in from the other door, <isn't he such a gentleman?> we got to the hospital I got out of the car and 6alool came and he graped my hand I felt weird, I looked at him,

''what 6alool?'' I said

''bwadech ley '3orfat omich'' 6alool said

''yea oki, but I'm not 5, you can not hold my hand you know'' I said, and smiled

''oki, kefi ana bmsek edch 3ndch mane3?'' he said and pulled me closer to him, I felt scared to be honest, and wondered is this going where I think its going

''uh, oki mister creeping me right now'' I said

we were standing in the street 3la elra9eef, and ..