Lose Me

Give it a chance to end

Act like I'm dead

Forget all the promises we sat

Ignore everything we said

You can't force it

We can't challenge destiny

And this wasn't meant to be

Losing this round is not a failure

Trying to win it is a waste

Frozen Hell

Looking at my life

What been and now

Been searching for signs

Fooled by all sides

Lost and victimized

Captivated by delusion

Love, Hate confusion

Terrified but need execution

Three elements set destiny

Games, Lies and insanity

Sounds like fun to be me

Action movie of breaking free

Can't judge what you didn't see

Keep asking why to be

Death seems sweet honestly

Plans we're set A, B and C

I hold back to not fall

One move and I lose it all

Taught to respect and ignore

This time my back was against the wall

It was time to set a war

Fire could only rage hell more

But I had the flames

I had control

When it was done

It was easy to let go

Away 5

Aug, 11th 2010

The Only feeling I did not confess was that I knew You were here somewhere you only knew and the people you are with, but I could not get near you or feel you or even hear you. I tried to accept the fact that you are gone and I seriously wanted to believe that lie and fool myself but it was just too hard to swallow, it was huge and we both knew its a lie.

Day;; 5

You are back as assuming you were away from the first place, I tried to move on and go back to my long lost acting career and be a star actress. As you are the director of the play we are playing you gave me the leading role and focused at the behind the scenes, also counted me of an V.I.P audience, because this show was invented for me to be blinded with some lies. But you forgot what I told you before I'm smart and I would stalk you if I want to, but this time i let you get away and play as you want and hear who laugh at last.

Sorry if I did not like the show and walked out.

Away 4

Aug, 10th 2010

There is nothing in this world more adoring to my heart than hearing you say it or read it when I need it the most, imaging that laugh which is my favorite ever..

Day 4;;

I loved this day. It began with my smile which I've faked so much since you've been gone. I got it back cause you sent me a message exactly at 6;30;46, I was shocked, happy, felt like crying, jumping, and screaming, also I knew the meaning of having the rush of the adrenaline moving through my veins. It was amazing I stared at the message for so long and got flash backs a lot of you, some was happy and some were sad, I got freshed up and I enjoyed my day.

Lonely Girl

A lonely girl definition is not identified properly, for a girl to live in loneliness is nothing like shes gonna be in a place which is completely empty, thats never the right description, she can never do captivation wither its by her or by force. That kinda girl is always with the crowed, she is very social, very opened and very in control, shes also very smart and amazingly lucky. Shes a master in fooling the world, she knows all the tricks and she like to flip heads. But the nickname lonely came from the smallest place she owns which is her heart. A place she loved to take care of by herself and don't allow untrusted people to interfere or get close to her heart, so they won't break or destroy it, however that place needs a mess from time to time to learn how to fix it again, or better yet a person who would make it stronger and treat it as his own.

Away 3

Aug, 9th 2010

I needed the touch, the grab and the hug. I wanted to get lost between your arms, lay on your chest and close my eyes.

Day;; 3

It started weird, I was tired, hungry and needed a shower. Humidity was raising so my hair was a mess and I had a bad hair day. I went to my BFF wedding party, it was so much fun and I looked fabulous as always. The bride was a beauty queen and the party was wow. I danced, laughed and ate cause I was so very hungry. I went back home at 11:30, I was not thinking about you that much but I've wished I could see you and hold your hand cause I was looking pretty. And I slept with Your T-shit on.

Lost

I try to be lost in the crowed, and I try to change my thoughts, thinking I might be happier, thinking I can forget about you, but still I wish you were here so I can see your joy which would make me smile, laugh and forget everybody around, cause all matter to me is you..

Away 2

Aug, 8th 2010

The voice I use to hear, it was the one which can heat me up til I'm burned, and calm me down til I'm frozen. Its missing I need it back ..

Day;; 2

It Started with a fake dream, tears transformed to knives, and light was dark although it was so bright. It was all weird to me, I had a feeling that I would see you today but I was wrong. I went with my family to the chalet, had very humid pleasing time, laughed, planned stuff which did not work, ate and finally went home exhausted, yet still thinking about you, and I slept wearing your shirt as usual.

Sinking

It feels so lonely, but really I don't need anyone to vanish this feeling unless its you.

For some reason, I cry you, I miss you and finally I love you. I wish sometimes that I never knew you, cause you are killing me and you know it, I'm breaking, melting, I hate whats happening and what you are changing but I do it anyways. I'm in the middle of an ocean, I dunno how to swim and I'm sinking deep, deep inside dying slowly, you know you can find me, save me If you wanted to, But I don't get it why won't you ..

Away 1

Aug, 7th 2010

Never felt more lost, broke and directions were very blury ..

Day 1;;

Time was going by very slowly, its like for the first time in my life time actually notice me, And obviously knows how to torture me. So the plan began, Time had holden the world for me, when I really needed it to run faster and faster than it ever did before, and with a snap everything would come back as I wanted it. But Time made me see we can't always get what we wish for.

Fake

She swore you're tied to her destiny
But she's burning your soul up with misery
Burred your emotions in agony cemetery
Your heart is a place she flagged her territory
Played you as another broken record of pain
Got you to beg in your knees "Enough scares I gain"
And you still shout let settle our case again
You loved her as much as the drops of a rain
Nothing can change now as she's all fake
She destroyed you like another useless slave
Blinded you with screams of love
Let you fly like an angel and see what's high above
Now Game Over and you're off the list, Bye bye

A Wish

It started with an empty dream

Like staring at an empty screen

All I want is a chance to scream

I could really use a wish right now

I would really wish for a lot if I knew how

And raise my head high never bow

I wanna tore my black past apart

I wanna live with new emotions new heart

Never hold a regret, Never Doubt

But that all still a wish list

Sad and lonely, Mad and real shitt

That how reality been fixed

And forever will be if we accepted